The New Plan -MorMor-

"LOUDER" Jim cried, bringing the knife to the other side of Seb's chest, putting his head to the side as he thought about the best place to start

Seb whimpered "PLEAE JIM" He ylled, shaking slightly.

Jim dragged the knife down in a line for the first part of the 'D'.
"I can't hear you" he sang

Sebastian gave a small cry "NO! JIM PLEASE!"

"I don't want to hear you right now" Jim muttered, craving the next part of the 'D'. He held Seb's hair back so Seb was forced to look up at Jim.

Seb stared at him, terror and tears filling his eyes "Plese Jim" he whimpered.

"Shut up" Jim said through gritted teeth, starting on the 'O'.

Seb whimpered, the first tear escaping him "I'll leave you!"

"You-You wouldn't dare" Jim whispered, stopping in his action of starting the first 'G'.
"I-I-" he faultered out

Sebastian's breath slowed now that Jim no longer had the knife in his flesh. He looked down slightly "No, I wouldn;t" he mumbled "I just- it hurts Jim!"

"Are you unhappy with me?" Jim whispered, looking at the floor.

Seb leant forward and kissed hi forehead "I am the happies person in the world with you James Moriarty"

"You don't seem like it" Jim said, getting off Sebastian and going to the living room, pulling up his pants as he did so "Why are you with me Sebby? Why do you care?"

Seb followed, ignoring the blood on his torso "I care beause... fuck I don;t ven know Jim, you're a sociopathic homicidall maniac but I love you!"

Jim stopped and froze. Sebastian Moran loved him? No, no, he couldn't, Jim was a fucking freak, a murderer! He was lying.
"Lair" he spat.

"I'm not" whispered Seb, walking aver and Taking Jims hand "I. Love. You."

Jim pulled away his hand quickly and grabbed his top and jacket that he'd thrown across the apartment earlier.
"I'm going out for a bit" he muttered, leaving Seb alone in the flat.

Seb sak to a sitting position on the count, placing is head in his hands.

Jim came home a few hours later, drunk and crying.
"Seb!" he cried as he tripped through the doorway and fell onto the floor in the hall.

Seb scramboed overto him, cradling the other man in his arms "Shh, Shh Jim it's oK, I'm here now, I won;t let them hurt you"

Jim just sobbed harder and clutched onto Seb's shirt, balling it up into fists.
"I'm sorry, I-I feel so dirty Seb, I can still...I can still f-feel them" he pressed his face into Sebastian's chest and started shaking "Fuck I'm so sorry".

Seb was almost distraught at seeing his boyfriend like this. The usually so strong Moriarty reduced to tears by the actions of a small group. He helped his lover into the shower befre carrying him to the bed, tucking him in and kissing his forhead, softly inging to him to try and get him to sleep.

"They'll come b-back Sebby" Jim whispered as they lay in bed together "They-they said they'd find me..." he trailed off, not wanting to share the news with Sebastian that if they did, which they probably would, they'd murder Seb for him.

"I won;t let them Jim" murmered Seb, kissing hsi forehead again when his boyfriend finally drifted off. He pulled on his coat and oots and tried not to cry as e scrawled a not down explaining everything. After that he walked down to the designated meeting placem, a seedy little pub called the willington.

Jim shot up it the darkness, gasping and clutching at his chest as he struggled to breath. Fuck, were the nightmares going to start already?
"Seb?!" he shouted, racing out of bed and going to the bathroom, stripping off as he went. So dirty, so dirty.
He stopped before he got in the shower which was pouring cold water when he realized Sebastian never answered.
'Sebby?!" he called again.